This is Moreso About Me

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First breath. 

First light.

First warmth.

Feels right.

Play time is no fun without mommy.

Play time is no fun without daddy.

Play time is no fun with my parents,

They just don’t understand;

I’m a helpless romantic.

And the only Beatles album worthe speaking of is Abbey Road. 

College life:

Time to get in line and work hard so I can get a good job,

I think I’ll major in theater. 

Lucky my girlfriend has a rich father

I can follow my dream. 

Too bad I’m a made man

No opportunities to do anything with my life.

Her fortune just holds me back. 

Nothing good comes with old age

Too old even to do anything. 

Retirement: still nothing to do

Life flash

Is that it?

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I’m heading East                            1

With my death in tow                     2

It’s never been more heavy.          3

I feel as if I’ll lose my grip               4

On what I have left,                         5

As my knees turn to jelly.               6

I remember jelly—

when I wasn’t heading East

it was all I had left 

to eat. It towed 

my tongue from the grips 

of disgust so heavy. 

The weight of memory is heavy,

it weighs me down like a stomach full of jelly

It’s holds me with the tightest grip 

forcing dragged feet heading East

like an ocean with the under tow

like quick sand with my breath all that’s left. 

What is left?

Whatever it is I wish it wasn’t so heavy—

I’ve already got my own death to tow.

The heat is turning the land to glass and my brains to jelly

and in that glass I see the faint resemblance of who i was back East.

But on glass your feet start to lose their grip

and gripe is like grip 

except I don’t have any left.

What could go wrong with a country between the East

and I? These feet aren’t even heavy

anymore; knees no longer jelly.

Hope lightens the load in tow. 

This same tow 

was earlier making me lose my grip

and turning my legs to jelly.

But hope is all that’s left.

Someday this heavy 

weight will make it all the way East. 

I’ll have jelly again after I’m finished towing

My death East and after I get my grip 

Maybe I’ll head left (West) then my death won’t be at all heavy. 

When I’m at the pearly gates
This’ll be on my videotape
my videotape

When Mephistopheles is just beneath
And he’s reaching up to grab me

This is one for the good days
And I have it all here
In red blue green
Red blue green

You are my centre when I spin away
Out of control on videotape
On videotape

This is my way of saying goodbye
Because I can’t do it face to face

No matter what happens now
I won’t be afraid
Because I know today has been the most perfect day I’ve ever seen.